Mark Hamill still can’t believe that Carrie Fisher is really gone.
Fisher died unexpectedly on December 27, days after suffering a heart attack on a flight from London to Los Angeles. She was just 60 years old.
On Monday, Hamill, Fisher’s friend and co-star, penned an emotional farewell letter to her in The Hollywood Reporter:
“Carrie and I occupied a unique area in each other’s lives. It was like we were in a garage band together that somehow hit it huge. We had no idea the impact ‘Star Wars’ would have on the world. I remember we were out on tour right before the movie opened. By the time we got to Chicago, there was a crowd at the airport. I said, ‘Hey look, you guys, there must be somebody famous on the plane.’ I was looking around to see who it might be. And then in the crowd I saw a kid dressed in a Han Solo vest. Then I saw girl dressed like Princess Leia. I said, ‘Oh my God, look, Carrie — there’s somebody dressed just like you. She’s got the buns on her head!'”
“I mean, she was just so instantly ingratiating and funny and outspoken. She had a way of just being so brutally candid. I’d just met her but it was like talking to a person you’d known for 10 years. She was telling me stuff about her stepfather, about her mom, about Eddie Fisher — it was just harrowing in its detail. I kept thinking, ‘Should I know this?’ I mean, I wouldn’t have shared that with somebody that I had trusted for years and years and years. But she was the opposite,” the actor said. “She just sucked you into her world.”
Hamill admitted that he was always amused by Fisher’s sense of humor and took great pride in his ability to make her laugh.
“I would do crazy things to amuse her on the set,” Hamill wrote. “Making her laugh was always a badge of honor…The lengths I would go to hear her laugh — there were no limits. I loved her and loved making her laugh.”
“We ran the gamut over the years, where we were in love with each other, where we hated each other’s guts,” he said. “‘I’m not speaking to you. You’re such a judgmental, royal brat!’ We went through it all. It’s like we were a family.”
Hamill also posted a tribute to his “Star Wars” co-star on social media after her death.
“Carrie was one-of-a-kind who belonged to us all- whether she liked it or not. She was OUR Princess, damn it, & the actress who played her blurred into one gorgeous, fiercely independent & ferociously funny, take-charge woman who took our collective breath away,” he wrote on Facebook.